I will live sincerely.
|The Original CocktailMoms|
"The anam cara was a person to whom you could reveal the hidden intimacies of your life. This friendship was an act of recognition and belonging. When you had an anam cara, your friendship cut across all convention and category. You were joined in an ancient and eternal way with the friend of your soul."
A Friendship Blessing
|Pre-Surgery: very nervous, lots of tears!|
|Being wheeled into surgery.|
If you haven't heard about my recent brush with breast cancer please start here, my first post on the subject of my boobs and then come back and read the update.
On May 30th I had my surgery at Sibly Hospital to remove the Phyllodes breast tumor and to have a breast reduction at the same time. Dr. Magnant, the breast surgeon, performed the wide excision lumpectomy, originally she was going to remove 2 cm of surrounding breast tissue to make sure that all the cancer cells were gone, also known as "clear margins". A pathologist was in the surgery room to test the sample of surrounding breast tissue and in the end Dr. Magnant had to remove 4 cm of breast tissue around the tumor.
Phyllodes tumors are very rare, they are not genetic so a breast cancer genetic test would not have predicted this type of tumor. What makes these tumors unique is that they grow rapidly and do NOT respond to chemotherapy. The only way to treat this type of tumor is to remove it with clear margins. If one cancer cell remains it could grow rapidly into another tumor.
Once the tumor was removed Dr. Huang, the plastic surgeon, began my breast reduction. The entire process took three and a half hours. I was brought to the recovery room and my wife and mom, who came with me to the hospital, were able to join me. During the recovery stage I reached the point where it was time for me to leave, the nurses were getting my things together. But I didn't feel "right". I am very tuned in to my body and it's needs and at that moment I had this overwhelming feeling that I was going to black out. I told my mom that I'm not ready, closed my eyes and slept for a bit more.
Always listen to what your body needs- you know better than anyone!
|In Recovery, refusing to go home.|
|Bandages and drains.|
This was a wake-up call...and I answered.
Children on the Autism Spectrum often find it difficult to process information gathered through their senses to appropriately react to them. My oldest son, who is on the Autism Spectrum, has such a Sensory Processing Disorder and struggles with a sensitivity to noise that usually prevents him from enjoying music.
I spent an hour and picked berries from all the branches that I could reach, mental note: invest in a light weight step ladder for next year.
These muffins are low fat and full of goodness and not super sweet either.
Oatmeal Peanut Butter Mulberry Muffins
1 cup oatmeal
1 cup white flour
1/2 cup sorghum flour
3/4 cup milk
1/2 cup peanut butter
1/4 cup agave
1/4 cup sugar
2 teaspoons baking powder
1/2 teaspoon salt
Preheat oven to 400 F. Mix all ingredients in your kitchen mixer until well blended. Spray muffin tin with cooking spray. Pour into muffin tin, almost to the top. Bake in oven for 20 minutes or until golden brown.